jdn 1 New York

 Ladh!

Hi, my boy.

How are you doing?

 

About 15 years ago ,I happened to meet a boy like you in Madrid, Spain.

The last day of my Spain travel in the evening I sat alone over wine in a cafe 

near Mad hostel I stayed ,looking out to the street .It was drizzling  ,

with the sun set and gas lights on.Then suddenly a boy in his adolence like you 

appeared before my eyes.He sat by myside ,saying ' how are you doing, grandfather.

I want to hear about cities you traveled to. He looked at me with his curious eyes.

And he added what made you go away alone so far from home. it was 2 or 3 years

before you were born.

 

You may think your father says a joke or an unreal story.but it is true.

 At the moment there was nobody in the cafe except me and the host of the cafe and

 nobody came in, However, I remember sharing dialogue with a boy as below,

and I am sure that the illosion of the boy was a  precious present Madrid gave me

as much as Laden as the most precious present  Heaven gave to me :

 

           'below'

:You must be surprised that  a boy shows up here,

Please let me explain who I am. In a word, I am the  very boy ,

with whom you have imagined traveling in company 

 

:Oh, boy! you are right . It's you. Just before you appeared ,

I happened to meet with my imaginery grandson happily.

 

:Anyway You really love to travel alone

why?

:글세. 막연하나마 그 때 나는 보통의 세속적인 사람들과 다른 사람,

이를테면 글쓰기와 관련된 예술가이고 싶었던 것 같다.

홀로 나선 먼 여행은 이럴 위한 일종의 고행 같은 것일터.

고행이 없이는 영적인 승화도 없다,

Sublime was the only word that came to a mind used to framing experiences in words. This particular word sounded appropriate since it is the root of sublimation. Sublimation is a term used in chemistry to denote a chemical change. The link to alchemy is there. We’re constantly changing, but it is by being aware of our changing nature that we find meaning. When we take the time to go on a contemplative trip we place ourselves in one occasion after another that lends itself to reflection, deepening with each experience and reaching further inward.

Sublimation is a process that comes more than anything from effort. Someone could have a near-death experience and have an intense awakening, but without putting effort into understanding the context of that experience, the initial thrill of the experience wears away. The same can be said for any epiphany or realization. Just as a space shuttle launches through the atmosphere the rockets fall back down to Earth and the shuttle soars through space. We want to be the shuttle, not the rockets.

Thinking of masters like Padmasambhava—the man committed himself to an austere life of meditation over who knows how many lifetimes. When he reincarnated as Padmasambhava he was ripe for realization. When I stood at the site where this man lived and worked, the force of this man’s effort became apparent to me. He wasn’t messing around with his life. He was committed to what he thought was the ultimate way to live, and he did it. His effort was so sublime that he opened up Buddhism to new lands, spurring so many to take the path of sublimation.

Travel can reinforce what we already know, but in a powerfully transformative way. We know the importance of daily practice, whether it’s meditation or figure skating, but being in a place where so much effort has been made we can actually feel the legacy left by the master. By feeling the effort they have made (and the many who laboured out of a strong devotion to build such an impressive monastery) it helps drive our own effort forward because it makes real the seemingly distant possibility of enlightenment.

 

귀중한 것을 체득하게하는 것은

두려움 때문이기도 하지.뭐 이런 마음으로서였을 것 같다.

그래서  나를 모르는 먼 곳으로 혼자 나서고 싶었다.

우리에게 가족 친구와 우리의 언어로부터 멀리 떨어져서 , 우리에게 의지가

되는 모든 것들을 빼앗기도 우리의 가면도 벗겨져 버린 채(전차의 요금이

얼마인지도 모른다. 모든 것이 다 그런 식이다) 우리는 우ㅏㄴ전히 우리 자신의

표면위로 노출되는 것이다.

그렇지만 처음 나설 땐, 한가지 명목-논문의 자료수집을 내세웠던게지.

그래야만 내 주변에서 좀은 이해해줄 수 있을 것이고, 특히 집에서의

분노를 사전에 차단해야 하기도 했고.

어려운 집안 살림에 가장의 혼자 여행즐기기는  좀....

 

 to find in USA and Europe s

ome books in English necessary for writing material

Then I was preparing to write a paper on International politics

박사과정에 있었거든.

But from my next  travel abroad, I wandered alone from this city to that one.

I just want be free from where I am destined to be in and from familiarity.

 

: ........

 

 

Probably You will read every letter from him who lives in Masan South Korea 

9 hours away by flight from Diamond Bar CA where your and your parents are living.

First of all l will begin by writing my expereince on New York .

 

Love

Jh

Your granfa